Saturday, June 04, 2011

salam peeps :)
what are u up to huh? me ? 

guess what? Im doing something that I never tot to do before, yess for now I guess.what a fun of having instant kids in just a blink of eye..hehe..of course not biologically kids okay. i'm babysitting for young kids at a taska located in bangi. sound funny aint? the early plan was I used to take over my sista’s role there since she been there about one month right afta she finished her school. so she’s going to further her tesol study in I kinda replace her position by unintended planning. I was bored at home for nothing to do. thus, I think this is good for me get use my times. Actually my parents were doubt about my capability to handle young kids. I admit it. Honestly said, it’s really toughful. 

Since I start my work, I keep on thinking; I have to plan my family no matter what because having kid is not as easy as abc’s. They need loves and attention as accordance to my one week observation. what u think, when u go for work then u leave ur kids to nobody that  u never know who, and u just spend about 5 hours out of 24hr together. What u expect the kids be? That’s why I take this job as serious. Indeed, u need to love them, give attentions to them, comfort them when they get sulked. I feel so pity when look at their faces. They are totally lack of love and being neglected by parent because life is so demanding nowadays. 
During my first day, I’ve shock about how people handle kids. There are 4 permanent workers at the taska. I cant accept the way several workers in there handle young kids. Even me, I will get mad and immediately terminate nursery’s service if I’m the parents for the kids. I don’t know what the proper word to call them. They are such an animal. I wanna shout them stupid old lady if I could. What u expect to 1-3years kids, they are innocent. 

Can u just imagine, for 1 years kids, what they can do for u? They cannt even walk properly or talk in not understandable language but they can understand what we talk to them. Same goes to 2-3years kids..They still cannt talk properly. but u know, what I saw is the old ladies there yell and scold them and brutally slap at kid’s faces to stop their tears. They left kids cry until they get tired in crying and fall asleep. They hold 6 months baby by using one hand and pull the baby’s hand while climb the stairway, sleep during working and just let the kids play among them and they did many more that I cant tell in words. They said they don’t wanna give face to kids, but hey!! they are only 1!! omg!! I feel so touched about what had I saw. I feel scared to send my kids at taska in the future. The old ladies pretend good and do nice in front of parents. seriously, I cant accept this. 

I’m gambled to be myself there even I know maybe some feel annoyed because I love to pamper kids when they cry at me and I comfort them not to cry. I can feel that. They might be hate me because I’m so weak or slow or what. But I cant let this to happen. i feel so upset about these. The taska own by my auntie. I cant report to her since I’m newbie there. i wanna resign and I hope I will find the right time to move out.
so now I see what is the different between educated and uneducated people. They just do work for money, no responsibility and no mercy upon the kids. I wont to do cruel because I don’t want someday God repay me the same to my own children as in return for what had I done before. Now I see how life is all about. Mama is right, once u step ur path out there, u will find many things that u cant never learn it at school. i can never merely trust people even they do nice to you. Doubt is needed. 

so guys out there..i hope u get something from my real story. it's my pleasure to share the truth..whatever here, Allah knows best.

big hugs,

ps: babies are huge send from heaven :)