What A Girl Wants

A boy who will hold his girlfriend around the waist and kiss her neck and whisper in her ear ”you’re beautifull”. If his freinds say something nasty about her he will flip. Text her first. Tell her every night he loves her. Texts her good morning beautiful. Makes the effort. Not flirt with other girls. Compliment everything about her. If she wants a hug, hush up and hold her like she is gold.

 

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Bawling for a stupider

late several days ago, I found myself so hard to accept the fact of losing someone. I know everybody feel annoyed because of my love issue. but, I don’t think I got somebody to tell to about my sadness. I only can write here telling what I’m felling.

I stuck on a stupider. I’m tired of giving chance. I’m tired of idea of falling in love. guys are jerk. they just think about their selves, which kind of selfish. they thought they did good enough in standing a relationship. they’ve taken everything for granted even at smallest things. he turned bossy when he never listen what was I said. I fed up with all this mess. I’m sick of trying to love someone. it’s obviously complicated rather than trapping in cross word puzzle. 

when I decided to end off this relationship, he accused me quitter. he said I know nothing but only given up. I broke people’s heart just because of him. then now, how much I feel regret about myself. I’m regret about inability of making decision plus my stupidity of making consideration. I hate of being regret. but, that’s what I feel right now. 

I hate crying for him. I hate when I’ve fallen stupid again and over again. I hate his sorry. I hate that I love him so much. I hate the idea of I can’t resist him to be part of my life. I so hate this feeling. suCks it up!

I wanna walk away without turn around but I’m terrified. I’m terrified of being alone. I’m terrified of being hurted.  even so much time, I ask God to show me the right way. but it seems not good enough because I’m still clueless about the right path. God listens to me but yet he don’t grant me what I’m looking for.  I wish for something better out there. they say that good things take time. but really great things happen in the blink of an eye. *sighing* I hope that’s true. 

I wanna bawl like crazy. but I’m tired of bawling around. I keep of thinking that I deserve a man 10 times nicer than him, smarter than him, even better look than him.  I want a guy who can make me feel secure when I’m tripping alone, when people call me ugly, stupid and insult me at the back. I want a guy who can lead me the right way of islam. be my guidance when I need. aware of my feeling. lend his shoulder during my bad day. I so want these. I won’t ever stop praying and hoping my happiness will come someday. 

after all I’ve been through, I think I’m strong enough to face whatever upcoming tricks of the life. I believe in me myself and I wait for the miracle coming around. Allah, bless me please.

off here,

eragadisbiasa.

second week of school : my girlfriends' insanity

Lying down on bed looking for something dumb to do in the boring Sunday *sigh*.  Since the sun feels shy to shine, I feel so sleepy under my floral pattern blanket covered all day long. I bet it's winter mood in shahlam.. 

Last night I involved in a mission of mortal combat with all my girlfriends. We planned to surprise the subject (Dila) for her birthday. around 3 am we chased  and poured blast of water each other. Seriously crazy!! At the first dila didn’t realize that she was influenced by eni that something was happened to leya. The purpose to drag her to eni’s room ended up with vain attempt when we didn’t even ready to surprise her. haha!! There was miscommunication between me and eni when I got pending message to get ready my army. So, she realized that we wanted to ambush her. She ran away for escape. after moment, we got her and she got blasts of flour juice.*euWw* it was ridiculously fun. Actually we aimed sara too, even she smelled our intention. But, she didn’t get an escape space. She took a revenge to attack us back. At last, everyone was back to rooms in wet outfits. haHaha..  **HaPpy BirthdaY to diLa** 
Whatever it was, they made my day. Thanks to everyone specially to HAniS (the mastermind), eNiey, sheNa, che,SaRa, DiLa, iJaN, LeYa and magfiRah. You guys are so sporting!! I won’t forget that moment. 

Second week of school is going kind of flat. I watched ‘ Antu kak Limah Balik Umah’ movie at Mid. it was my first malay movie I ever watched in 2011. Not bad, the story is full with hilarious scenes from the beginning until the end. My Gfs and I didn’t stop laughing like crazy in the cinema. I think the story is simple and don’t even has motive at all. but the way how the movie present is light and easy to watch by people.  so, I give five stars for Antu kAk limah balik umah. I consider it as Must watch malay movie. so don’t miss to watch it okay!

awie as the co-star

What more I wana tell you guys. oh yess!! During our outing last friday, we accidentally bought 3.4 FL. OZ Ralph Lauren perfume. * im dead if he knows*. my gFs and i bought 3 bottles of perfume for 140 Dollar. even i'm ambiguous about its originality but for me,it's nicely affordable for our daily use perfume i guess.erm.. I oso bought my new purse. It’s just unfamiliar brand. Hehe. It was seriously unintended planning. I love Roxy’s purse. But, maybe I’m not meant to have it, so, I just walked away glancing at the purse from far *sad face*. But it’s okay for me. If I have balance petty money I will get you ROXY!!! 

Those are all about my second week of school. I off here..dada!!

ps: sorry, i cant publish the pics during the outing and during the birthday attack. 

first week of school :)

Welcome back to school. Praise a lot to The Lord, I’d been through the first week of my final semester, though, everything just went okay. The schedule of mine is little bit uncrowded cause of the blank space on Tuesday and Friday class.  so, it’s gonna good opportunity  to escape myself from the hectic student life on every weekend. well,  I love to be at home, so heaven. for this semester, I’m gonna through several subjects including neurobiology, animal behaviour, strategic management, HR study and indeed the most critical which is my final project. Even the least no of subject rather my last sems, but these all are the toughest one for sure. Whatever so, I’ve to maintain the same momentum of efforts upon them. *pftt*

I’m sort of interested about neurobiology study, as what the accordance of the introduction that I’ve been learnt last time, erm… but I guess, there is silver lining of difficulty behind it. indeed, that’s the reason why most of student did not afford to pass this subject at their first sits. hopefully, im not gonna be one of them, scary dude!!

My fyp is running good so far. maybe by next week I can start my first step  which is radiating process in UM. im so grateful because Allah lead me such an easy way for me, after complete several procedures, I  can start my project there. Alhamdulillah..but even so, I’m terrified when thinking about what’s gonna happen during the project or what if the project end up with failure or what if there is no responses during all entire the project. it’s holy crap for sure.  I hope that’s just my ridiculous imagination about my fyp well, maybe of too much worry about it and heavily thinking about ‘what if’ this and that.

I definitely love surprise .you know what, speechlessly, I was shocked about my papa’s bestfriend teach me in the class for strategic mgt subject. though,I’m sort of felt ashamed when he told everyone in the class about who is my dad. actually, I kind of secretive about my family or even about my privacy so I just put my sight down to the floor and  it turned me so blushing a sudden until the end of the class. it was an incredible day I bet. shiTT!!

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kiss, eragdisbiasa.