Sunday, November 28, 2010

Things that hurt

Being unsure of how someone feels about you.
Feeling like they are mad at you.
Being misunderstood by people you care about.
Being judged by people you care about.
Feeling like you lost something that was never yours.
Feeling like you’re doing too much.
Thinking you aren’t doing enough.
Not knowing if you should say something.
Worried about what they’ll think if you do say it.
Feeling like you care more than they do.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

middle finger up

i hate people who thinks they know everything. what the hell they showed off like got no ass. fucks it up and get stuffed dude..whore is worth you then.*middle finger up*


LoVE never Dies

girl: your new girlfriend is pretty. (i bet she stole your heart)
boy: yeah, she is. (but you’re still the most beautiful girl i know)
girl: i heard she’s funny & amazing. (all the stuff i wasn’t)  
boy: she sure is. (but she’s nothing compared to you) 
girl: i bet you know everything about her by now (like how you knew just about everything about me) 
boy: only the stuff that count (i can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when i think of you) 
girl: well, I hope you guys last. (because we never did) 
boy: i hope we do too. (whatever happened to me & you?) 
girl: well i got to go. (before i start to cry)  
boy: yeah me too. (i hope you don’t cry) 
girl: bye. (i still love you)
boy: later. (i never stopped) 

love shouldn't be like this

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

i made my day..Ss problem

kiss my ass please

me & my upcoming car
 i have no idea why i put these both of pics..haha..saje2 xde keje

Monday, November 22, 2010

Sucks it up!!

hey..i went to mid valley mall KL in the morning today.well, it should be unintended planning coz my laziness just been so greater than usual, well it's holiday's happier if i spend time hugging my bloster under the comforter cover and dont need to be morning people..fucking hate being morning people..haha..but ofkosh i was for today, my mom ordered me to be an escort for my little sista~isya & leha~ that was no big deal since i was having fun there too and moving my ass for the first time since the school holiday been started.
walking aimless in the mall is kinda a suck activity huh..i hate looking to the loving couples around. cuddling here and there. jelous!! of course!!!sucks it boo stays too far from me.well, he's oso so-called family man whom like no balls cant go anyway after put his ass at home.that what makes me mad alots.i hate when he cant to be real just the way he is.come on are 21..i cant even call him when he's in front of his family, he tend to be so covered-person and cranky indeed.what the hell are you acting like that trying to understand the situation, and i am working soo hard into it, but we still keep having arguing & fighting & yada3 like no ways to work it out.i hate him this and ok to say byebye but depth in my heart still missing him.i never felt before with my've fallen me crazee!!i hate this feeling and this is fucking true!
arghh..i just leave everything to God. feeling like i wanna be single at the moment.enjoy my life and having good time.maybe we just need some time to miss each other. screw you! if u cant let it why dont you appriciate it.sometime i wanna curse you into stone because you have least different like a stone!so numb and whatever resembles it! sucks it up!


i hate

  • When I get jealous.
  • When I know im getting lied to.
  • When I get used.
  • When I’m an option.
  • When I know I don’t have a chance with the person I like.
  • When I get a blunt reply from someone who means more to me than what I mean to them. 
  • When I’m fighting with a bestfriend.
  • When I don’t trust anyone but myself.
  • When my mom turns super saiyan on me. LOL.
  • When someone cancels something at the last minute.
  • When I study my ass off, and get a bad score.
  • When people walk like a freaking snail.
  • People who keep complaining. 
  • “Eugh. I can’t believe I got 98% on my Maths test” Stop rubbing it in. You got yourself an A, and you’re still not happy with that? Go drown yourself in your tears, you whiny son of a bitch. 
  • When people say, “Talk to me!” Honeh’, I am talking to you. You’re just putting in half the effort.
  • When people jump to conclusions. Don’t make assumptions, or I’ll happily fly kick your face. 
  • Violence against women. Wow, how low can you get? Learn how to treat a girl with respect.
  • Or just violence in general.seems like im so loving*winkwink*
  • People who think they’re bloody the book of knowledge. Please shut the fuck up, Mr and Mrs Know-it-all. 
  • Boys who take 3 hours+ to get ready.
  • Tag a longs. Stop being a sheep.
  • When people do not know how to reblog.Its a few simple clicks. Surely it can’t be that hard. Its not rocket science.
  • People who bring me down, just to bring themselves up.
  • Racism.
  • Kids who have no respect for their parents. What so ever.
  • Girls who flaunt their body to the world wide web. Ok, we all know you have a good body. But please, this is getting ridiculous. Take your pictures some place else.
  • Robert Patterson. - No you do not dazzle me, you sparkly maniac. You look like a horse. Please jump off a cliff.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Painful part

i think i've bad intense feeling..not sure how serious is it..but it's tremendously painful..
i feel like i hve no one and really need my mama right not sure what’s actually going on.since my final started and i spent a lot of time at home, everything turns so weird after that. my so-called bestfriends dont even care about me. seriously i’m clueless what makes they keep out of reach of me. i gave my best shot i guess. that was shame on me to say sorry for every single mistakes i did.pretty reckless so do i sometime my words would hurt people, but everytime i recalled back myself and did apologize. my every single days are just wonderful with my smile in not sure if these thing are going up due to jelousy issue or what??..sigh.. i try to let it as ignorant as possible because i've one more paper to go.. i miss my bestfriend nina. i miss every moment we spent together-through thick and thin just like twinny, we’d been scolded by nina’s mom for our ridiculous. the most memory that i never forget, we were lying down on street during midnight under the moon light and kept promise to stay forever as best friend. i was regret for losing her contact  for several years  since i knew im the one who caused her to do so. sorry nina if i know that would happen, i never let you even know him. feeling like empty right now.well, i wish i could further my master abroad so i dont need to stand with all kinda nonsences.hopefully, i gonna fix it as possible as i can. friend means much to me even it is just only littlest something to think about.i love you guys no matter how much i hurt..


Monday, November 01, 2010

.: if i die young :.

 i hate listening to the sad song. But this song really touches my soul. it is an incredible and beautiful song.When I first listened to the song, the message didn't quite make it through. It was an inviting melody, and easy to sing along, but it wasn't until I watched the video that I realized the deeper meaning behind those carefully written lyrics. this song gives the idea that no one knows how much longer they have in this life so be optimistic and cherish it while you can.The country genre of this song makes me doubled my passion to listen this song again and again. My Mr hasiF is the one who introduce me this. Thanks luV..Frankly, i really love it.

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls